inner voices

Monday, December 31, 2007

Dear 2007,
I can't believe you're already over. You've been such a monumental year in my life. Interesting, given that there were no big "life events" in 2007, like there were in 2006 (graduation, etc). That said, my life has changed more in 2007 than it has in any other year in recent memory. Most of these changes were for the better and perhaps, someday, I will be able to see the rest of them as for the better as well. Some of the highlights:

~2007 was the first year since 1998 that I didn't move at least once. That trend will not continue into 2008 but it was really nice for this one year.

~I made some great new friends this year. Both locally (many of whom I hope to ring in the new year with this evening) and across the country (many of whom I was fortunate enough to spend the bulk of this past weekend with).

~I've been able to truly enjoy my friends near and far.

~Most importantly, I've been happy. I'm always hesitant to say this, I'm afraid of jinxing myself. But as I sit here and type, I know that I am truly happy.

2007, you were a good year. I am excited and a bit nervous to see what 2008 holds in store. I know there will be changes - probably big ones. I'll be buying a condo and moving, possibly to a neighborhood far from a lot of my friends. Nothing in life ever stays the same. But it would be boring if it did. Thanks for the memories 2007 - I'll always treasure them.

With love,
me

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Dear Current Workweek,
I must say, your existence (as a workweek) puzzles me.  There is absolutely no reason for me to be here.  I have done so little work today and yesterday.  I have, however, cleaned my office quite nicely.  Yet I am here.  Just in case someone might need me.  But no one will need me, unless of course I leave.  Then someone will need me and I won't be here and that will be a problem.  So I sit here, doing not a lot of anything, thinking about the things that I could be doing if I weren't here, like returning Christmas presents, going to Best Buy to pick up the Christmas present I gave to myself (more on that another time), making soup with my new immersion blender, baking, or doing absolutely nothing.  All of which sound preferable to sitting at my desk trolling the limited internet sites that I can access from work (ugh - Websense!).  Giving the timing of the holidays, and especially given the fact that we already have next Monday off, wouldn't it have just made more sense for this whole week to have been holiday??  I think so...
Just a thought, 
me    

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Dear Friends,
Just wanted to pop on and wish you all a very merry Christmas! I hope that your day has been filled with love and loved ones.
I am busily trying to get back into the Christmas spirit after a decidedly un-Christmasy day yesterday (spent all morning very sick - am thinking food poisoning - ick) and some rather un-Christmasy news today, but I'm getting there. Hopefully an evening surrounded by my family will take me there (if nothing else, it will make me oh so grateful for the solitude of my own apartment tonight!!).
So... Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!!
With love,
me

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Dear Mother Nature,
I realize that you may have been trying to kill me this weekend. With those road conditions, your intentions were really pretty apparent. And there were times, driving down I-65 on Saturday in those storms that I really thought you might succeed. But you didn't. And you know what, I'm glad for that! You may have tried, but you didn't even make us late this morning! Nope, resourceful people we are, we found a shovel and dug and pushed the car out!
Once again, I win!
:P,
me

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Dear Sleep,
Why do you play games with me?? I do not like games (well, I like board games but that's a little different). I can already tell that this is just not going to end well. Not the week for me to have only gotten 3 hours of sleep for no reason. It would be one thing if I'd been burning the midnight oil, working until 3 AM and only had 3 hours to sleep. But no, I had 8 hours to sleep and only slept for 2 or 3 of them. And why? Because you are mean and played games with me. We are not friends right now :( We'll talk again tonight, when I hopefully won't have to work late and can go to bed early to make up for your shenanigans!
No love,
me

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Dear Winter,
I think we have a problem.  I'm already sick of you... and it's only December 6, which means you're not going anywhere for a long time.  I like cool weather.  Fall is good.  Spring is good.  But I am not enjoying the constant chill of winter.  The never being able to warm up.  My fingers are like little ice cubes all the time (makes typing a little difficult).  No matter how much I bundle up, I can't seem to dress warmly enough.  On a related note - what on earth was up with all the people not wearing hats and scarves this morning???  The windchill is in the single digits.  It is COLD.  Are these people really that worried about what a hat will do to their hair?  Because I am so over that.  I have just accepted the fact that I will have bad hair days every day for as long as the season continues.  And life will go on.  But really, winter, if you could find a way to warm my fingers up just a little bit, I'd appreciate it.
Thanks,
me 

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Dear Brain,
Why is it that you have decided to completely stop functioning in any meaningful sense?  You seem to have gone away on vacation, leaving me behind.  Why?  Is it the new month?  Is it the snow?  Is it the upcoming holidays?  Or am I just starting down an unfortunate path of losing my mind?  Whatever the reason, it is completely unacceptable.  I have things to do!!  Work, in particular, that really needs to get done.  And you are just off in another land apparently.  Please come back.  I miss you.  I need you.
With love,
me     

Monday, December 03, 2007

Dear December,
Where on earth did you come from?? How are you here already?  I'm not ready for you!! I'm not ready for the craziness that you inherently bring.  I'm stressed just thinking about it and I haven't even started living yet really!!  So much to do, so little time.  So much that I want to do balanced against all the crap that I have to do.  And trying to fit it all into three weeks... Yikes!!!  And now I'm going out of town for at least part of one weekend (it's for a good reason, but still... that was an important weekend in the pre-holiday preparation!! and possibly for working...). 
I just hope I have time to enjoy you.  Because there's a lot of fun stuff that happens in December and I'd hate to get so swept up in the craziness of work and trying to fit everything else in that I don't get to enjoy any of it.  So, December, you managed to sneak up on me, but please, I beg you, take it easy on me.  I want to enjoy you, not just look forward to your finale.
With love,
me