totally ridiculous but i can't help it

I've known for months that my family was goign skiing without me at the end of January and I've been jealous. But I don't think it really hit me just how jealous I was (am) until my dad just called to tell me that he landed in Vail. It's completely irrational how upset I am about this but I can't help it. It's all I can do to keep from having a meltdown right now over the fact that I'm not going to ski all winter and they get to spend 5 days skiing in Colorado. It's ridiculous that this would upset me this much. I don't want to be here. I want to be there. I want to ski. I don't want to be here.